Alone

So what happened to me?  I think back to when I did have ‘real’ friends…and it must have been at least 10 years ago.  I’ve never felt more alone than I do now.  Is it my fault?  Do I run people away?  Am I afraid of letting people in?  I don’t like the feeling of being so alone, but am I getting used to it?  I’ve become a hermit and I don’t even know how it happened.  My biggest fear in life is not death nor speaking in public…it’s growing old alone.

Eli’s Coming…

FUCK YOU!!!!!

FUCK YOU!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!! FUCK YOUUUUUUU!!!!!

I had to get that out.

I’m back after a long hiatus

I’m finally back on the computer since my house was robbed and my computers stolen.  At first I missed having a computer but then I started reminiscing about the times I had way back before the internet.  Since I got a new computer I have not been online nearly as much.  Basically, I get online to communicate with my sister, who lives on the other side of the world, and to talk to a woman I fell in love with…and, yes, I met her through the internet.  I never thought that would happen…but, it’s wonderful and will be more wonderful in the future (hopefully very near future).  I actually started falling for her by just talking to her and getting to know her.  I never even saw a picture of her for the first 3 months we were talking.  Anyway, I know not a lot of people read my blogs, but my advice to everyone out there…love will last a lifetime if you fall in love with the whole person.  Honestly, after everything I had been through in the past, I thought I would never truly love…never…then I met her.  I’m proud to say I’m in love and I want everyone in the world to know. 

Yeah, I kinda got off subject.  I can’t help my mind wonders off to someone I love so much.  Ok, here goes…back on subject.  Well, my house was broken into mid November.  What really got me mad was that they broke in through my daughter’s bedroom window.  Luckily, we weren’t home.  They didn’t get much, just my computers and a BB gun (damn kids).  Fortunately, my alarm was going off and they didn’t “rob me blind”.  I kind of found it humorous that they tried to steal my TV but couldn’t get it off the wall (that’s where the cops got the best fingerprints haha).  So here I am, back on the internet.  I doubt I’ll be on here much, but I guess we’ll see.  It all depends on how bored I get and if I find better things to do with my spare time.

Oh Yeah!!!

Alright, here it is everyone. My long awaited new blog. I will be adding to this, hopefully, daily. Honestly, I doubt that. I’ll be lucky to get a blog on here once a week. For some reason I’m horrible at putting my thoughts into words…tends to get me in “trouble” a lot. Maybe, with as slow as I type, I’ll have plenty of time to think before I type…hahaha. I will also try to make this interesting. I will be back later to make this blog interesting (hopefully)…work with me here people.